r2mahesh
- Feb 16
- 1 min read

diary of a cyberbully

i started tweeting specifically for fun i think?

but by the time i turned 20 it was definitely more of an identity thing

i did a lot of weird scattering to figure out who to think like and what opinions to mold my character around

this has led to a lot of moralizing, theorizing, critiquing, bullying, pivoting, and

shutting things down in my head

in pursuit of something ultimate

but these days

i find myself more aligned with people i think are kind, rather than people who I think are right (no maga)

or cool or smart or the right kind of hot

and idk that sucks too

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